This is the third livestream from that night — after the first one had crackling audio and the second one got interrupted by FaceTime calls. So I came back one more time to talk honestly about where I’m living, what I’m going through, and why my life still feels like being “lit on fire and put inside a walk‑in freezer.”
As I say in the stream, “I’m basically living in a closet right now… waiting for a few things in my life to change.”
And “everything I’m going through is affecting my ability to change my life in real tangible ways.”
In this video, I talk about:
• Losing my job last July
• Losing my house and studio in January
• Living with the mother of my kids after our breakup
• Going to therapy weekly
• Trying to rebuild my life in my 40s
• Starting a new career path
• Leaning on family and faith
• Why I’m restarting this channel now
This channel has been comedy, podcasts, remixes, experiments — and now it’s me rebuilding from the ground up. If you’ve been here through all the phases, thank you. If you’re new, welcome to the journey.
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⏱️ Timestamps (Based on Your Transcript)
00:00 – Explaining the audio issues from the first two streams
00:10 – FaceTime calls interrupting the second stream
00:26 – Streaming from a closet
00:35 – Living situation: staying with the mother of his kids
01:02 – “Living in a closet” and waiting for life to change
01:17 – Revisiting the “lit on fire in a walk‑in freezer” metaphor
01:28 – Trying to find alternative ways to make a living
01:39 – How life circumstances are blocking progress
01:48 – Weekly therapy and mental health work
02:04 – Spiritual awakening and uncertainty
02:16 – First time in a long time not knowing the path
02:26 – How life changed in his 30s
02:52 – Losing job in July and the domino effect
03:20 – Losing house, studio, and people
03:39 – Why he’s livestreaming again
03:46 – Planning a new career and going back to school
04:01 – Fourth career in his 40s
04:23 – 20+ years of content creation
04:38 – Chat joins the stream
04:45 – Feeling better mentally, emotionally, physically
05:06 – The “frozen but on fire” feeling explained again
05:32 – Letting go of control
